Sunday, October 17, 2010 { 1:39 AM }

today still the same nothing to do . boring like hell, i want faster go back to sch . althought school is boring , but after seeing baby make me love school. but tuesday how to go school ? tuesday go le QUEK sure call me take out my ear pericing de . i dunno wan to go anot . yesterday talk to baby half way then dunno why feel so fed up . after that she wan sleep then i go do my thing alr . she dunno i cannot sleep :( yesterday how night never sleep until , until now i dun feel tried at all.i also dunno why . maybe think to much until cannot sleep ba:( now the only way to cure my moodyness is baby beside me hearing me saying all the sad thing out !!!!!! but i know it cannot be , i also dunno why. keep missing baby until very fed up . i got totally no mood to do anything . i only can use the phone to talk to her , or use the computer to write out all my xin si . i really dunno what to do alr . feel like dieing and leave everybody now ! hopefully they will have lesser burden . talk about dead i really have to think carefully . i dun wan make wrong step .after i get my exam paper then see how . this thing really cannot let baby know . hope see today no see my blog ba . i die alr also cannot tell her . this must keep it as a secret . shh.......... if she dunno i am dead she wont feel so sad . must tell her i wan go thailand .